The Adventures of Sebastian B.B.: 29wks along and 11wks To Go!!!

Something in my mind told me I had to post a HOLY COW only 11wks to go post. I saw on Saffron's count down ticker to being a big sister that I was 77days away from the birth of our second child, then my friend said 11wks. 11wks!!!!!!!!!! WHAT??? I know it's the same, but 11wks seems so much shorter, and I guess some of the things I did not consider to bother me now, are. The main worry I had was what to do with Saffron when the big day comes. Would I be alone, would I have help, will I make it there and with a child in tow. That worry has been fixed, my dear cousins who live 8 miles away will help out. Good thing too, because the rest of my family and friends are an hour or more away. Do I have the right and or time to worry....not sure sure with trying to chase a toddler around, but these things are slowly creeping up on me, so many emotions, and I have no idea where they are coming from. Will I be a good Mother? Will I be able to handle two small children when all my help goes back to work. Not so bad being home with Saffron...what about being home with two little ones, will I be able to handle it all? Going with cloth on this baby, will I have the will power to stick with it? Then come the hospital fears ( I had Saffron quick and with no pain meds), will this baby be the same, or will I be in labor for days. I had Saffron room in with me the entire hospital stay, so will I do the same with this baby, or will I feel bad and have to send baby to the nursery for some alone time??? I know I won't be able to do that at home. I just wish I knew where this sudden range of emotions came from, and I think I can deal with them, I just need to figure out a game plan, or is there even one? I have set small goals for myself that are baby related. One being the baby's bag is already packed and ready to grab, in the crib. My next goal is to pack mine. I have a few others like making a few meals ahead and freezing them, but again comes the energy issue. I know my time is running low, I realize that now....I just need some help as to what I can do if anything to prepare my self for Baby Blume Number 2!!!

Okay enough blabbing
Here are my Holy Cow Only 11wks To Go Pics!!!