38wks 2d along,
and I hope no more than 12days of waiting.
We will see.............
I was not going to do anymore posts, at least not till it was a "Welcome Baby" post, but as the days pass on by, I felt the need to post something, at least to lift my spirits a little bit. It's been a very hard time for me since I lost my Mucous Plug last week. The Braxton Hicks contractions have increased, along with my discomfort levels, and then comes the lack of sleep. I know I must not complain about the sleep, because once baby comes, I will get even less. These nights where I get a total of 3 hrs or less from the time I get Saffron down till the time she wakes up, has really, really taken a toll on me. My sleep spaces go from our bed, to the couch, back to our bed, and when Saffron wakes up needing me, I end up in her bed. I spend a lot of sleepless nights tossing and turning trying to get comfortable. Just not possible for me these days, and I don't ever recall it being this bad with Saffron. I know with the small size baby was accessed at by the Dr. at my last OB apt, being at 6lbs needing to be Full Term in order to get a little bigger, but I guess I'm being selfish now, wanting the baby to be born, just to ease my comfort levels a little. I'm so drained of energy, and I'm fearing once baby is born, will I even have the energy to give birth. I'm not walking around like a zombie or anything, but I'm just not the happy person I use to be several posts ago, being so overly tired and just plain exhausted, and that scares me. I don't know when baby will come, whether it be on time, late, or within the next 12 days, but I do know I'm ready to go anytime, I just wish I knew when that was going to be.
I was not going to do anymore posts, at least not till it was a "Welcome Baby" post, but as the days pass on by, I felt the need to post something, at least to lift my spirits a little bit. It's been a very hard time for me since I lost my Mucous Plug last week. The Braxton Hicks contractions have increased, along with my discomfort levels, and then comes the lack of sleep. I know I must not complain about the sleep, because once baby comes, I will get even less. These nights where I get a total of 3 hrs or less from the time I get Saffron down till the time she wakes up, has really, really taken a toll on me. My sleep spaces go from our bed, to the couch, back to our bed, and when Saffron wakes up needing me, I end up in her bed. I spend a lot of sleepless nights tossing and turning trying to get comfortable. Just not possible for me these days, and I don't ever recall it being this bad with Saffron. I know with the small size baby was accessed at by the Dr. at my last OB apt, being at 6lbs needing to be Full Term in order to get a little bigger, but I guess I'm being selfish now, wanting the baby to be born, just to ease my comfort levels a little. I'm so drained of energy, and I'm fearing once baby is born, will I even have the energy to give birth. I'm not walking around like a zombie or anything, but I'm just not the happy person I use to be several posts ago, being so overly tired and just plain exhausted, and that scares me. I don't know when baby will come, whether it be on time, late, or within the next 12 days, but I do know I'm ready to go anytime, I just wish I knew when that was going to be.
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